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#MondayBlogs It’s OKAY to be Sad! #Quarantine #JohnBarrowman

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Hey guys! It’s Claire w/ Claire Cre8tes. Welcome back to my channel, or if you’re new here I hope you click that big friendly red subscribe button to join my Cre8tive Club!

I know it’s definitely been more than a hot minute since I posted; and I’m a bit ashamed to admit that this year I’ve let stress and depression squash my dreams like when you squish an ant on your kitchen counter. Even before the COVID19 mania started. So when the chaos of the pandemic did occur, my depression spiraled again and all I wanted to do was sleep and disappear from the world.

But I’ve finally accepted that this is reality now. No, no one deserves or asked for this reality. But I must learn to cope in more ways than pizza and sleep. Luckily, I do have my Twitter family @clairecre8tes … so I never really feel alone even though I live by myself.

Twitter has been an amazing outlet for me as I’m able to share my thoughts, feelings and obsessions! I also feel like I’m contributing positively as I help others in my communities do the same.

Also on Twitter that’s been helping me cope, is the Doctor Who lockdown global rewatch! It started with three weeks ago with an epic Day of the Doctor. Claiming that the world (our world) needs the Doctor more than ever! It was really fun! I was able to catch Day of the Doctor & Vincent and the Doctor live. It was great hearing stories from the cast & crew and uniting all the fans! Plus we usually get some fun, fresh easter eggs content! It’s really awesome and it helped solidify the feeling that the Doctor Who twitter community is indeed a family.

We might argue and bicker about the pros and cons of each season … but at the end of the day, we’re family.

And last night John Barrowman was vlogging during the watch-along … and he said something that really resonated with me.

And, I’m paraphrasing here, but he said during the scene where everyone is around the TARDIS council that’s what it’s all about. Being together.

And then he said … he said it’s okay to be sad during these weird and terrible times.

It’s okay to be sad.

That hit home with me because often times both as a society, and I think many of us do this personally too … we tend to view sadness ad a mega failure.

At least, that’s how I’ve been. Especially the last couple of months.

But, just this week, I’ve started to feel better. I think the depression medicine might finally start working, and I’m letting go of feeling so unworthy and how unfair everything is. Things will get better, and I Just have to accept it might be a couple more months. There is just nothing I can do about it.

Except, I am doing something about it. I’m staying home. My mom is at risk and I’ve been so completely terrified and paranoid about accidently spreading it to her.

But at least by staying home, I’ve reminded myself of why I indeed am. I’m not staying at home because I’ve failed (I’ve especially felt that way since I lost my job); I’m staying home to help my family.

And, it’s okay to be sad. It’s okay to be scared.

And … we truly are all in this together.

So find yourself an online community. Share your obsessions, actions and concerns. It’s not attention seeking as many view social media. It’s about keeping yourself sane!

So how are YOU coping during these COVID days? What is your outlet? And what inspires you to stay home if you’re able to? Let’s chat in the comments!

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Thanks so much guys!

Claire